When I stepped away from this page, I thought not much would change besides the time I spent scrolling. 📱 I was getting lost in a sea of other instagrammers who were posting the same things as me, so what was the point?🤔 In the past three days, I’ve realized what I’ve been missing. It was believing in myself about what I held true. I could absorb health, wellness, fitness, mindset, etc. all day long. And for the most part, I was living it, too. But there was a piece of me that rebelled against those things and at times I would think “what’s the point?”🤷🏼♀️ That thought led to me being in a constant battle with myself. I had lost my own trust & I didn’t believe in me. I was reading other insta-posts that were meant to be motivational and I would be like “YASSSS🙌🏻🦄🌈” …but then turn around five seconds later and didn’t feel like it pertained to me anymore. So I questioned how they all could do it day in and day out? How do others post and believe what they’re saying all the time? How do other people live their truths? It struck me that for me, sharing it is the key 🔑 Writing what I believe, sharing what I do, connecting with others on their own journeys to find their truths. Just that little bit of accountability to be real with others was what I had been missing. Being able to process it by writing the words and trying to make it all make sense for someone else. That’s how I make it make sense for me. That is how I believe. ✨
So, long story short: I’m back to rambling on instagram 📸🤣 and I once again realized that I’m doing this for me. To process my thoughts and reactions. To believe in myself.✨ And hopefully, help anyone else following to find a way to believe in themselves, too. 🤗 .
And maybe it seems silly that I need to do this to believe in myself. I *should* just have the faith and do the thing. But maybe we need to stop “should-ing” ourselves. I’d rather just set myself up for my own success in the way I know how. And this is it, so here I am 💁🏼♀️
Photo credit goes to the wonderful @samantha.mariephotography 📸 [and that’s my husband & me in the picture from our engagement 💍 photoshoot in Philly!]